When I was fifty years old, I told the elders what had happened when I was six years old and I refused to be quiet about it. Then, I did lose my family! This happened six years ago and I was disfellowshipped and shunned because I reflected about the Watchtower Society's policies for handling pedophiles and their victims. The elders didn't care about my history. The only thing they cared about was the reproach (on the Watchtower Society of Jehovah's Witnesses) that would come from making public what happened to me. I told them, "I've been a Jehovah's Witness for forty-four years. Please, let me have six weeks for a timeout." They only gave me two weeks. I wasn't ready to submit to the restrictions they imposed, so they disfellowshipped and shunned me. The horrible thing is that the elders in my congregation told me to get out. They wanted me to beg for forgiveness for having criticized the Watchtower Society!
It's rough when you see your oldest son and your only doughter don't want to speak to you. My ex-husband, who is an elder, is still in pursuit (in court, etc.) of me today. It's about money. He sees me as a dead person, because I'm disfellowshipped, but when it's about money, he sees me as a living person, in the highest degree. It's strange...but it's also not a Christian way to solve things. I also discovered that my ex-husband has some help from his "brothers" in the same business. They help each other in their hate of alleged apostates. I have seen shocking things about them manipulating their former partners. They are involved in sending out "hate-letters," and leaving phone messages, and never answer when anyone calls them back.
I haven't seen two of my four children, nor have I seen my three grandchildren for four years. That's so sad. You cant survive such hate against yourself, and against the Watchtower Society without Jesus Christ. It will eat you up! So, today I'm a Christian. Without Jesus, I would take my life. I see things from another point of view now.
I am writing my autobiography, "Whole and Free," which will soon be finished.